Jaqueline turned abruptly and walked with quick tapping steps to her husband’s office. With her usual curt nod to the stenographer she strode by her to the inner room. Mather looked up from his desk in surprise at her brusque entry.
«Jim,» she began breathlessly, «did Bronson ever pay you that three hundred?»
«Why—no,» he answered hesitantly, «not yet. He was in here last week and he explained that he was a little bit hard up.»
Her eyes gleamed with angry triumph.
«Oh, he did?» she snapped. «Well, he’s just bought a new sport roadster that must have cost anyhow twenty-five hundred dollars.»
He shook his head, unbelieving.
«I saw it,» she insisted. «I heard him say he’d just bought it.»
«He told me he was hard up,» repeated Mather helplessly.
Jaqueline audibly gave up by heaving a profound noise, a sort of groanish sigh.
«He was using you! He knew you were easy and he was using you. Can’t you see? He wanted you to buy him the car and you did!» She laughed bitterly. «He’s probably roaring his sides out to think how easily he worked you.»
«Oh, no,» protested Mather with a shocked expression, «you must have mistaken somebody for him——»
«We walk—and he rides on our money,» she interrupted excitedly. «Oh, it’s rich—it’s rich. If it wasn’t so maddening, it’d be just absurd. Look here—!» Her voice grew sharper, more restrained—there was a touch of contempt in it now. «You spend half your time doing things for people who don’t give a damn about you or what becomes of you. You give up your seat on the street-car to hogs, and come home too dead tired to even move. You’re on all sorts of committees that take at least an hour a day out of your business and you don’t get a cent out of them. You’re—eternally—being used! I won’t stand it! I thought I married a man—not a professional Samaritan who’s going to fetch and carry for the world!»
As she finished her invective Jaqueline reeled suddenly and sank into a chair—nervously exhausted.
«Just at this time,» she went on brokenly, «I need you. I need your strength and your health and your arms around me. And if you—if you just give it to every one, it’s spread so thin when it reaches me——»
He knelt by her side, moving her tired young head until it lay against his shoulder.
«I’m sorry, Jaqueline,» he said humbly, «I’ll be more careful. I didn’t realize what I was doing.»
«You’re the dearest person in the world,» murmured Jaqueline huskily, «but I want all of you and the best of you for me.»
He smoothed her hair over and over. For a few minutes they rested there silently, having attained a sort of Nirvana of peace and understanding. Then Jaqueline reluctantly raised her head as they were interrupted by the voice of Miss Clancy in the doorway.
«Oh, I beg your pardon.»
«What is it?»
«A boy’s here with some boxes. It’s C.O.D.»
Mather rose and followed Miss Clancy into the outer office.
«It’s fifty dollars.»
He searched his wallet—he had omitted to go to the bank that morning.
«Just a minute,» he said abstractedly. His mind was on Jaqueline, Jaqueline who seemed forlorn in her trouble, waiting for him in the other room. He walked into the corridor, and opening the door of «Clayton and Drake, Brokers» across the way, swung wide a low gate and went up to a man seated at a desk.
«Morning, Fred,» said Mather.
Drake, a little man of thirty with pince-nez and bald head, rose and shook hands.
«Morning, Jim. What can I do for you?»
«Why, a boy’s in my office with some stuff C.O.D. and I haven’t a cent. Can you let me have fifty till this afternoon?»
Drake looked closely at Mather. Then, slowly and startlingly, he shook his head—not up and down but from side to side.
«Sorry, Jim,» he answered stiffly, «I’ve made a rule never to make a personal loan to anybody on any conditions. I’ve seen it break up too many friendships.»
«What?»
Mather had come out of his abstraction now, and the monosyllable held an undisguised quality of shock. Then his natural tact acted automatically, springing to his aid and dictating his words though his brain was suddenly numb. His immediate instinct was to put Drake at ease in his refusal.
«Oh, I see.» He nodded his head as if in full agreement, as if he himself had often considered adopting just such a rule. «Oh, I see how you feel. Well—I just—I wouldn’t have you break a rule like that for anything. It’s probably a good thing.»
They talked for a minute longer. Drake justified his position easily; he had evidently rehearsed the part a great deal. He treated Mather to an exquisitely frank smile.
Mather went politely back to his office leaving Drake under the impression that the latter was the most tactful man in the city. Mather knew how to leave people with that impression. But when he entered his own office and saw his wife staring dismally out the window into the sunshine he clinched his hands, and his mouth moved in an unfamiliar shape.
«All right, Jack,» he said slowly, «I guess you’re right about most things, and I’m wrong as hell.»
III
During the next three months Mather thought back through many years. He had had an unusually happy life. Those frictions between man and man, between man and society, which harden most of us into a rough and cynical quarrelling trim, had been conspicuous by their infrequency in his life. It had never occurred to him before that he had paid a price for this immunity, but now he perceived how here and there, and constantly, he had taken the rough side of the road to avoid enmity or argument, or even question.
There was, for instance, much money that he had lent privately, about thirteen hundred dollars in all, which he realized, in his new enlightenment, he would never see again. It had taken Jaqueline’s harder, feminine intelligence to know this. It was only now when he owed it to Jaqueline to have money in the bank that he missed these loans at all.
He realized too the truth of her assertions that he was continually doing favors—a little something here, a little something there; the sum total, in time and energy expended, was appalling. It had pleased him to do the favors. He reacted warmly to being thought well of, but he wondered now if he had not been merely indulging a selfish vanity of his own. In suspecting this, he was, as usual, not quite fair to himself. The truth was that Mather was essentially and enormously romantic.
He decided that these expenditures of himself made him tired at night, less efficient in his work, and less of a prop to Jaqueline, who, as the months passed, grew more heavy and bored, and sat through the long summer afternoons on the screened veranda waiting for his step at the end of the walk.
Lest that step falter, Mather gave up many things—among them the presidency of his college alumni association. He let slip other labors less prized. When he was put on a committee, men had a habit of electing him chairman and retiring into a dim background, where they were inconveniently hard to find. He was done with such things now. Also he avoided those who were prone to ask favors—fleeing a certain eager look that would be turned on him from some group at his club.
The change in him came slowly. He was not exceptionally unworldly—under other circumstances Drake’s refusal of money would not have surprised him. Had it come to him as a story he would scarcely have given it a thought. But it had broken in with harsh abruptness upon a situation existing in his own mind, and the shock had given it a powerful and literal significance.
It was mid-August now, and the last of a baking week. The curtains of his wide-open office windows had scarcely rippled all the day, but lay like sails becalmed in warm juxtaposition with the smothering screens. Mather was worried—Jaqueline had over-tired herself, and was paying for it by violent sick headaches, and business seemed to have come to an apathetic standstill. That morning he had been so irritable with Miss Clancy that she had looked at him in surprise. He had immediately apologized, wishing afterward that he hadn’t. He was working at high speed through this heat—why shouldn’t she?
She came to his door now, and he looked up faintly frowning.
«Mr. Edward Lacy.»
«All right,» he answered listlessly. Old man Lacy—he knew him slightly. A melancholy figure—a brilliant start back in the eighties, and now one of the city’s failures. He couldn’t imagine what Lacy wanted unless he were soliciting.
«Good afternoon, Mr. Mather.»
A little, solemn, gray-haired man stood on the threshold. Mather rose and greeted him politely.
«Are you busy, Mr. Mather?»
«Well, not so very.» He stressed the qualifying word slightly.
Mr. Lacy sat down, obviously ill at ease. He kept his hat in his hands, and clung to it tightly as he began to speak.
«Mr. Mather, if you’ve got five minutes to spare, I’m going to tell you something that—that I find at present it’s necessary for me to tell you.»
Mather nodded. His instinct warned him that there was a favor to be asked, but he was tired, and with a sort of lassitude he let his chin sink into his hand, welcoming any distraction from his more immediate cares.
«You see,» went on Mr. Lacy—Mather noticed that the hands which fingered at the hat were trembling—»back in eighty-four your father and I were very good friends. You’ve heard him speak of me no
