«If I were as wise as the mole, if I were free and equal, then what an admirable whorehouse I should be the Madame of; more likely, though, I would end up just Mrs. Nobody in Particular, a dumpy corsetless creature with a brickhead husband and stepladder brats and a pot of stew on the stove.» Hurriedly, as if bringing an important message, an ant climbed up his neck, and disappeared into his ear. «There’s an ant inside your head,» said Joel, but Randolph, with the briefest nod, went on talking. So Joel cuddled up to him and, politely as he could, peered into his ear. The idea of an ant swimming inside a human head so enthralled him that it was some while before he became aware of silence, and the tense prolonged asking of Randolph’s eyes: it was a look which made Joel prickle mysteriously. «I was looking for the ant,» he said. «It went inside your ear; that could be dangerous, I mean, like swallowing a pin.»
«Or defeat,» said Randolph, his face sinking into sugary folds of resignation.
The gentle jog of John Brown’s trot set ajar the brittle woods; sycamores released their spice-brown leaves in a rain of October: like veins dappled trails veered through storms of showering yellow; perched on dying towers of jack-in-the-pulpit cranberry beetles sang of their approach, and tree-toads no bigger than dewdrops, skipped and shrilled, relaying the news through the light that was dusk all day. They followed the remnants of a road down which once had spun the wheels of lacquered carriages carrying verbena-scented ladies who twittered like linnets in the shade of parasols, and leathery cotton rich gentlemen gruffing at each other through a violet haze of Havana smoke, and their children, prim little girls with mint crushed in their handkerchiefs, and boys with mean blackberry eyes, little boys who sent their sisters screaming with tales of roaring tigers. Gusts of autumn, exhaling through the inheriting weeds, grieved for the cruel velvet children and their virile bearded fathers: Was, said the weeds, Gone, said the sky, Dead, said the woods, but the full laments of history were left to the Whippoorwill.
As seagulls inform the sailor of land’s nearness, so a twist of smoke unfurling beyond a range of pines announced the Cloud Hotel. John Brown’s hoofs made a sucking sound in the swamp mud as they circled the green shores of Drownin Pond: Joel looked over the water, hoping to glimpse the Creole or the gambler; alas, those sly and slimy fellows did not show themselves. But anchored off shore was a bent, man-shaped tree with moss streaming from its crown like scarecrow hair; sunset birds, hullabalooing around this island roost, detonated the desolate scene with cheerless cries, and only catfish bubbles ruffled the level eel-like slickness of the pond: in a burst, like the screaming of the birds, Joel heard the lovely laughing splashful girls splashing diamond fountains, the lovely harp-voiced girls, silent now, gone to the arms of their lovers, the Creole and the gambler.
The hotel rose before them like a mound of bones, a widow’s-walk steepled the roof, and leaning over its fence was Little Sunshine, who had a telescope trained upon the path; as they came closer he began a furious gesturing which at first seemed a too frantic welcome, but as his frenzy dissipated not at all, they soon realized he was warning them off. Curbing John Brown, they waited in the seeping twilight while the hermit descended through the trapdoor of the widow’s-walk, presently reappearing on a slide of steps which tinkled over wastes of feudal lawn down to the water’s rim. Brandishing his hickory cane, he advanced along the shore with a creeping bowlegged hobble, and Joel’s eyes played a trick: he saw Little Sunshine as the old pond-tree come alive.
Still yards away, the hermit stopped and, stooping on his cane, fixed them with a gluey stare. Then Randolph said his name, and the old man, blinking with disbelief, broke into frisky giggles: «Well, now, ain’t you the mischief! Can’t see worth nothin, an there I was with my ol spyglass axin: who that a-comin where they ain’t got no place? Well, now, this be a sweet todo! Step-long, step-long, follow me right careful, plenty quicksand.»
They walked single-file, Joel who led the mule, going last, and wondering, as he followed the sog of Randolph’s footprints, why he’d been lied to, for it was plain that Little Sunshine had not been expecting them.
Swan stairs soft with mildewed carpet curved upward from the hotel’s lobby; the diabolic tongue of a cuckoo bird, protruding out of a wall-clock, mutely proclaimed an hour forty years before, and on the room clerk’s splintery desk stood dehydrated specimens of potted palm. After tying a spittoon onto John Brown’s leg, this in order that they could hear him should he wander off, they left him in the lobby, and filed through the ballroom, where a fallen chandelier jeweled the dust, and weather-ripped draperies lay bunched on the waltz-waved floor like curtsying ladies. Passing a piano, over which web was woven like the gauzy covering of a museum exhibit, Joel struck the keys expectingChopsticks in return, instead,
there came a glassy rattle of scuttling feet.
Beyond the ballroom, and in what had once been Mrs. Cloud’s private apartment, were two simply furnished spacious rooms, both beautifully clean, and this was where Little Sunshine lived: the evident pride he took in these quarters increased the charm of their surprise, and when he closed the door he made nonexistent the ruin surrounding them. Firelight polished sherry-red wood, gilded the wings of a carved angel, and the hermit, bringing forth a bottle of homemade whiskey, put it where the light could lace its comforting promise. «It is been a mighty long while since you come here, Mister Randolph,» he said, drawing chairs about the fire. «You was justa child, like this sweet boy.» He pinched Joel’s cheeks, and his fingernails were so long they nearly broke the skin. «Usta come here totin them drawin books; I wisht you’d come again like that.» Randolph inclined his face toward the shadows of his chair: «How silly, my dear; don’t you know that if I came here as a child, then most of me never left?
I’ve always been, so to speak, a non-paying guest. At least I hope so, I should so dislike thinking I’d left myself somewhere else.» Joel slumped like a dog on the floor before the hearth, and the hermit handed him a pillow for his head; all day, after the weeks in bed, it had been as if he were bucking a whirlpool, and now, lullabyed to the bone with drowsy warmth, he let go, let the rivering fire sweep him over its fall; in the eyelid-blue betweenness the wordy sounds of the whiskey-drinkers spilled distantly: more distinct and real were whisperings behind the walls, above the ceiling: rotate of party slippers answering a violin’s demand, and the children passing to and fro, their footsteps linking in a dance, and up and down the stairs going-coming humming heel-clatter of chattering girls, and rolling broken beads, busted pearls, the bored snores of fat fathers, and the lilt of fans tapped in tune and the murmur of gloved hands as the musicians, like bridegrooms in their angel-cake costumes, rise to take a bow. (He looked into the fire, longing to see their faces as well, and the flames erupted an embryo; a veined, vacillating shape, its features formed slowly, and even when complete stayed veiled in dazzle; his eyes burned tar-hot as he brought them nearer: tell me, tell me, who are you? are you someone I know? are you dead? are you my friend? do you love me? But the painted, disembodied head remained unborn beyond its mask, and gave no clue.
Are you someone I am looking for? he asked, not knowing whom he meant, but certain that for him there must be such a person, just as there was for everybody else: Randolph with his almanac, Miss Wisteria and her search by flashlight, Little Sunshine remembering other voices, other rooms, all of them remembering, or never having known. And Joel drew back. If he recognized the figure in the fire, then what ever would he find to take its place? It was easier not to know, better holding heaven in your hand like a butterfly that is not there at all.)Goodnight ladies, sweet dreams ladies, farewell ladies, we’re going to leave you now! Farewell sighs of folding fans, the brute fall of male boots, and the furtive steps of tittering Negro girls tiptoeing through the vast honeycomb snuffing candles and drawing shades against the night: echoes of the orchestra strum a house of sleep.
Then over the floors an earthly clangclang dragging commenced, and Joel, wide-eyed at this uproar, turned to the others; they’d heard it, too. Randolph, flushed with whiskey and talk, frowned and put down his glass. «It be the mule,» said Little Sunshine with an inebriated giggle, «he out there walkin round.» And Joel recalled the spittoon they’d tied to John Brown’s leg: it banged on the stairs, seemed to pass overhead, become remote, grow near.
«How’d he get up yonder?» said the hermit, worried now. «Ain’t no place for him to be: damn fool gonna kill hisself.»
