I said it. I said it with all the conviction I could muster.
«Now fuck me!» she whispered, and her mouth twisted savagely. She lay crosswise on the bed, her skirt around her neck. «Pull it off!» she begged, too feverish to find the snaps. «I want you to fuck me as thought you never had me before.»
«Wait a minute,» I said, pulling out. «I’m going to take these damned things off first.»
«Quick, quick!» she pleaded. «Put it in all the way. Jesus, Val, I could never do without you… Yes, good, good… that’s it.» She was squirming like an eel. «Oh Val, you must never let me go. Tight, hold me tight! Oh God, I’m coming… hold me, hold me.» I waited for the spasm to die down. «You didn’t come, did you?» she said. «Don’t come yet. Leave it in. Don’t move.» I did as she wished; it was jammed in tight and I could feel the silk pennants inside her fluttering like hungry birds. «Wait a minute, dear… wait.» She was gathering her forces for another explosion. Her eyes had become large and moist, relaxed, one might say. As the orgasm approached they grew concentrated, darting wildly from one corner to the other, as though frantically seeking for something to fasten on. «Do it, do it now,» she begged hoarsely. «Go on, give it to me!» Again her mouth had that savage twist, that obscene leer, which more than the most violent movements of the body unleash the male orgasm.
As I shot the hot sperm into her she went into convulsions. She was like a trapeze artist coming off near the roof. And, as happened to her frequently, the orgasms succeeded one another in rapid sequence. I was almost on the verge of slapping her face, to snap her out of it.
The next thing was a cigarette, of course. She lay back under the sheet and inhaled deep puffs, as though she were using a pulmotor.
«Sometimes I think my heart will give out… I’ll die in the midst of it.» She relaxed with the ease of a panther, her legs wide apart, as if to let the sperm run out. «God,» she said, placing a hand between her legs, «it’s still running out… Give me a towel, will you?»
As I was bending over her with the towel, I put my fingers up her cunt. I liked to feel it just after a fuck. So thrilly-dilly.
«Don’t do that,» she begged weakly, «or I’ll start all over again.» As she spoke she moved her pelvis lasciviously. «Not too rough, Val… I’m tender. That’s it.» She put her hand on my wrist and held it there, directing my movements with deft and delicate pressure of the fingers. Finally I managed to withdraw my hand and quickly glued my mouth to her crack. «That’s wonderful,» she sighed. She had closed her eyes. She was falling back into the dark hollow of her being.
We were lying sidewise, her legs slung around my neck. Presently I felt her lips touching my prick. I was spreading her cheeks apart with my two hands, my one eye riveted on the little brown button above her cunt. «That’s her asshole,» said I to myself. It was good to look at. So small, so shrunken, as though only little black sheep droppings could come from it.
After we had a bellyful and were lying between the sheets softly snoozing there came a peremptory knock on the door. It was Rebecca. She wanted to know if we had finished—she was going to make tea and she wanted us to join them.
I told her we were taking a nap, couldn’t say when we’d get up.
«May I come in a minute?» With that she pushed the door slightly ajar.
«Sure, come in!» I said, squinting at her with one «ye.
«God, you two certainly are a couple of love birds,» she said, giving a low, pleasant, earthy sort of chuckle. «Don’t you ever get tired of it? I could hear you way down the other end of the hall. You make me jealous.»
She was standing beside the bed looking down at us. Mona had her hand over my prick, an instinctive gesture of self-protection. Rebecca’s eyes seemed to he concentrated on this spot.
«For God’s sake, stop playing with it when I talk to you, won’t you?» she said.
«Why don’t you leave us alone?» said Mona. «We don’t walk into your bed-room, do we? Can’t one have any privacy here?»
Rebecca gave a hearty, guttural laugh. «Our room isn’t as attractive as yours, that’s why. You’re like a couple of newlyweds: you make the whole house feverish.»
«We’re clearing out of here soon,» said Mona. «I want a place of my own. This is too goddamned incestuous for me. Jesus, you can’t even menstruate here without everyone knowing it.»
I felt impelled to say something mollifying. If Rebecca were aroused she could twist Mona into a knot.
«We’re getting married next week,» I put in. We’ll probably move to Brooklyn, to some quiet, peaceful spot. This is a bit out of the world.»
«I see,» said Rebecca. «Of course you’ve been getting married ever since you came here. I’m sure we didn’t prevent you—or did we?» She spoke as. if she were hurt.
After a few more words she left. We fell asleep again and woke up late. We were hungry as wolves. When we got to the street we took a taxi and went to the French-Italian grocery store. It was about ten o’clock and the place was still crowded. On one side of us was a police lieutenant and on the other a detective. We were seated at the long table. Opposite me, hanging from a nail on the wall, was a holster with a pistol in it. To the left was the open kitchen where the big fat brother of the proprietor held sway. He was a marvelous, inarticulate bear dripping with grease and perspiration. Always half-cocked, it seemed. Later, after we had eaten well, he would invite us to have a liqueur with him. His brother, who served the food and collected the cash, was a totally different type. He was handsome, suave, courteous and spoke English fairly well. When the place thinned out he would often sit down and chat with us. He talked about Europe most of the time, how different it was there, how «civilized», how enjoyable the life was. Sometimes he would get to talking about the blonde women of North Italy where he came from. He would describe them minutely—the color of their hair and eyes, the texture of their skin, the luscious, sensual mouths they had, the slippery movement of the haunches when they walked, and so on. He had never seen any women like them in America, he said. He spoke of American women with a contemptuous, almost disgusting, curl of the lips. «I don’t know why you stay here, Mr. Miller,» he would say. «Your wife is so beautiful… why you don’t go to Italy? Just a few months. I tell you, you never come back.» And then he would order another drink for us and tell us to stay a little longer… maybe a friend of his would come… a singer from the Metropolitan Opera House.
Soon we became engaged in conversation with a man and woman directly opposite us. They were in a gay mood and had already passed on to the coffee and liqueurs. I gathered from their remarks that they were theatre people.
It was rather difficult to carry on a continued conversation owing to the presence of the hooligans on either side of us. They felt that they were being snubbed, simply because we were talking of things beyond their ken. Every now and then the lieutenant made some dumb remark about «the stage». The other one, the detective, was already in his cups and getting nasty. I loathed the both of them and showed it openly by ignoring their remarks completely. Finally, not knowing what else to do, they began to badger us.
«Let’s move into the other room,» I said, signalling the proprietor. «Can you give us a table in there?» I asked.
«What’s the matter?» he said. «Is there anything wrong?»
«No,» I said, «we don’t like it here, that’s all.»
«You mean you don’t like ms,» said the detective, snarling the words out.
«That’s it,» I said, snarling back at him.
«Not good enough for you, eh? Who the hell do you think you are any way?»
«I’m President McKinley—and you?»
«Wise guy, eh?» He turned to the proprietor. «Say, who is this guy anyway… what’s his line? Is he trying to make a sap out of me?»
«Shut up!» said the proprietor. «You’re drunk.»
«Drunk! Who says I’m drunk?» He started to totter to his feet, but slid back again into the chair.
«You better get out of here… you’re making trouble. I don’t want no trouble in my place, do you understand?»
«For crying out loud, what did I do?» He began to act like an abused child.
«I don’t want you driving my customers away,» said the proprietor.
«Who’s driving your customers away? This is a free country, ain’t it? I can talk if I wanta, can’t I? What did I say… tell me! I didn’t say nothin’ insultin’. I can be a gentleman too, if
