possessed by a mania of egoism, which reaches to the point of concentra-tion of all spiritual strengths on oneself; another,
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the greater part, almost 80 per cent., is hypnotised by the scientific, by the artistic . . . and princi-pally . . . hypnotism, and also does not make use of its reason. Therefore progress in the world is always attained by the insane possessed by the same kind of insanity by which the majority is pos-sessed.
13) I experience the feeling of peace, of satis-faction, when I am ill, when there takes place in me the destruction of the limits of my personality. As soon as I get well I experience the opposite: restlessness, dissatisfaction. Are these not obvi-ous signs that the destruction of the limits of per-sonality in this world, is the entrance of life into new limits?
I have finished. December ig. Moscow. If I live.
To-day December 20. Moscow.
My health is not good. My spiritual condition is good, ready for death. In the evenings there are many people. I tire. In number 5i, 399 Resurrection did not appear and I was sorry. This is bad.
I thought out a philosophic definition of life. To-day I thought well about The Coupon. Perhaps I shall write it out.

The End