Mother sat down on the bed and held his hand. The things she said he couldn’t understand fully, but some of them made sense. “If I had to write a philosophy of children, I guess I’d title it impatience. Impatience with everything in life. You must have things—right now—or else. Tomorrow’s so far away, and yesterday is nothing. You’re a tribe of potential Omar Khayyam’s, that’s what. When you’re older, you’ll understand that waiting, planning, being patient, are attributes of maturity; that is, of being grown up.”
“I don’t wanna be patient. I don’t like being in bed. I want to go to the sea shore.”
“And last week it was a catcher’s mitt you wanted—right now. Please, pretty please, you said. Oh, gosh, Mom, it’s elegant. It’s the last one at the store.”
Mom was very strange, all right. She talked some more:
“I remember, I saw a doll once when I was a girl. I told my mother about it, said it was the last one for sale. I said I was afraid it would be sold before I could get it. The truth of the matter is there were a dozen others just like it. I couldn’t wait. I was impatient, too.”
Johnny shifted on the bed. His eyes widened and got full of blue light. “But, Mom, I don’t want to wait. If I wait too long, I’ll be grown up, and then it won’t be any fun.”
That silenced mother. She just sort of sat there, her hands tightened, her eyes got all wet after a while, because she was thinking, maybe, to herself. She closed her eyes, opened them again, and said, “Sometimes—I think children know more about living than we do. Sometimes I think you’re—right. But I don’t dare tell you. It isn’t according to the rules—”
“What rules, Mom?”
“Civilization’s. Enjoy yourself, while you are young. Enjoy yourself, Johnny.” She said it strong, and funnylike.
Johnny put the shell to his ear. “Mom. Know what I’d like to do? I’d like to be at the seashore right now, running toward the water, holding my nose and yelling, ‘Last one in is a double-darned monkey!’” Johnny laughed.
The phone rang downstairs. Mother walked to answer it.
Johnny lay there, quietly, listening.
Two more days. Johnny tilted his head against the shell and sighed. Two more whole days. It was dark in his room. Stars were caught in the square glass corrals of the big window. A wind moved the trees. Roller skates rotated, scraping, on the cement sidewalks below.
Johnny closed his eyes. Downstairs, silverware was being clattered at the dinner table. Mom and Pop were eating. He heard Pop laughing his deep laughter.
The waves still came in, over and over, on the shore inside the sea shell. And—something else.
“Down where the waves lift, down where the waves play, down where the gulls swoop low on a summer’s day—”
“Huh?” Johnny listened. His body stiffened. He blinked his eyes.
Softly, way off.
“Stark ocean sky, sunlight on waves. Yo ho, heave ho, heave ho, my braves—”
It sounded like a hundred voices singing to the creak of oarlocks.
“Come down to the sea in ships—”
And then another voice, all by itself, soft against the sound of waves and ocean wind. “Come down to the sea, the contortionist sea, where the great tides wrestle and swell. Come down to the salt in the glittering brine, on a trail that you’ll soon know well—”
Johnny pulled the shell from his head, stared at it.
“Do you want to come down to the sea, my lad, do you want to come down to the sea? Well, take me by the hand, my lad, just take me by the hand, my lad, and come along with me!”
Trembling, Johnny clamped the shell to his ear again, sat up in bed, breathing fast. His small heart leaped and hit the wall of his chest.
Waves pounded, crashing on a distant shore.
“Have you ever seen a fine conch-shell shaped and shined like a pearl corkscrew? It starts out big and it ends up small, seemingly ending with nothing at all, but aye lad, it ends where the sea-cliffs fall; where the sea-cliffs fall to the blue!”
Johnny’s fingers tightened on the circular marks of the shell. That was right. It went around and around and around until you couldn’t see it going around anymore.
Johnny’s lips tightened. What was it Mother had said? Children. The—the philosophy—what a big word! Of children! Impatience. Impatience! Yes, yes, he was impatient! Why not? His free hand clenched into a tiny hard white fist, pounding against the quilted covers.
“Johnny!”
Johnny yanked the shell from his ear, hid it quickly under the sheets. Father was coming down the hall from the stairs.
“Hi there, son.”
“Hi, Dad!”
Mother and Father were fast asleep. It was long after midnight. Very softly Johnny extracted the precious shell from under the covers and raised it to his ear.
Yes. The waves were still there. And far off, the creening of oarlocks, the snap of wind in the stomach of a mainsail, the singing chant of boatmen faintly drifting on a salt sea wind.
He held the shell closer and yet closer.
Mother’s footsteps came along the hall. She turned in at Johnny’s room. “Good morning, son! Wake yet?”
The bed was empty. There was nothing but sunlight and silence in the room. Sunlight lay abed, like a bright patient with its brilliant head on the pillow. The quilt, a red-blue circus banner, was thrown back. The bed was wrinkled like the face of a pale old man, and it was very empty.
Mother looked at it and scowled and stamped her crisp heel. “Darn that little scamp!” she cried, to nobody. “Gone out to play with those neighbor ruffians, sure as the day I was born! Wait’ll I catch him, I’ll—” She stopped and smiled. “I’ll love the little scamp to death. Children are so—impatient.”
Walking to the bedside she began brushing, adjusted the quilt into place when her knuckles rapped against a lump in the sheet. Reaching under the quilt, she brought forth a shining object into the sun.
She smiled. It was the sea shell.
She grasped it, and, just for fun, lifted it to her ear. Her eyes widened. Her jaw dropped.
The room whirled around in a bright swaying merry-go-round of bannered quilts and glassed run.
The sea shell roared in her ear.
Waves thundered on a distant shore. Waves foamed cool on a far off beach.
Then the sound of small feet crunching swiftly in the sand. A high young voice yelling:
“Hi! Come on, you guys! Last one in is a double-darned monkey!”
And the sound of a small body diving, splashing, into those waves . . .
Once More, Legato
Fentriss sat up in his chair in the garden in the middle of a fine autumn and listened. The drink in his hand remained unsipped, his friend Black unspoken to, the fine house unnoticed, the very weather itself neglected, for there was a veritable fountain of sound in the air above them.
“My God,” he said. “Do you hear?”
“What, the birds?” asked his friend Black, doing just the opposite, sipping his drink, noticing the weather, admiring the rich house, and neglecting the birds entirely until this moment.
“Great God in heaven, listen to them!” cried Fentriss.
Black listened. “Rather nice.”
“Clean out your ears!”
Black made a halfhearted gesture, symbolizing the cleaning out of ears. “Well?”
“Damn it, don’t be funny. I mean really listen! They’re singing a tune!”
“Birds usually do.”
“No, they don’t; birds paste together bits and pieces maybe, five or six notes, eight at the most. Mockingbirds have repertoires that change, but not entire melodies. These birds are different. Now shut up and give over!”
Both men sat, enchanted. Black’s expression melted.
“I’ll be damned,” he said at last. “They do go on.” He leaned forward and listened intently.
“Yes . . .” murmured Fentriss, eyes shut, nodding to the rhythms that sprang like fresh rain from the tree just above their heads. “. . . ohmigod . . . indeed.”
Black rose as if to move under the tree and peer up. Fentriss protested with a fierce whisper:
“Don’t spoil it. Sit. Be very still. Where’s my pencil? Ah . . .”
Half peering around, he found a pencil and notepad, shut his eyes, and began to scribble blindly.
The birds sang.
“You’re not actually writing down their song?” said Black.
“What does it look like? Quiet.”
And with eyes now open, now shut, Fentriss drew scales and jammed in the notes.
“I didn’t know you read music,” said Black, astonished.
“I played the violin until my father broke it. Please! There. There. Yes!
“Slower,” he whispered. “Wait for me.”
As if hearing, the birds adjusted their lilt, moving toward piano instead of bravado.
A breeze stirred the leaves, like an invisible conductor, and the singing died.
Fentriss, perspiration beading his forehead, stopped scribbling and fell back.
“I’ll be damned.” Black gulped his drink. “What was that all about?”
“Writing a song.” Fentriss stared at the scales he had dashed on paper. “Or a tone poem.”
“Let me see that!”
“Wait.” The tree shook itself gently, but produced no further notes. “I want to be sure they’re done.”
Silence.
Black seized the pages and let his eyes drift over the scales. “Jesus, Joseph, and Mary,” he said, aghast. “It works.” He glanced up at the thick green of the tree, where no throat warbled, no wing stirred. “What kind of birds are those?”
“The birds of forever, the small beasts of an Immaculate Musical Conception. Something,” said Fentriss, “has made them with child and its name is song—”
“Hogwash!”
“Is it?! Something in the air, in the seeds they ate at dawn,