Anything your heart asks, it’s here. You’d like the fire and the travel, Tom, it was made for you. Oh, we’ve a pale lot of writers today, I’ve read them all, Tom, and they’re not like you. I’ve waded in libraries of their stuff and they’ve never touched space, Tom; we need you for that! Give an old man his wish then, for God knows I’ve waited all my life for myself or some other to write the really great book about the stars, and I’ve waited in vain.
So, wherever you are tonight, Tom Wolfe, make yourself tall. It’s that book you were going to write. It’s that good book the critics said was in you when you stopped breathing. Here’s your chance, will you do it, Tom? Will you listen and come through to us, will you do that tonight, and be here in the morning when I wake? Will you, Tom?
His eyelids closed down over the fever and the demand. His tongue stopped quivering in his sleeping mouth.
The clock struck four.
Awakening to the white coolness of morning, he felt the excitement rising and welling in himself. He did not wish to blink, for fear that the thing which awaited him somewhere in the house might run off and slam a door, gone forever. His hands reached up to clutch his thin chest.
Far away . . .footsteps . . .
A series of doors opened and shut. Two men entered the bedroom.
Field could hear them breathe. Their footsteps took on identities. The first steps were those of a spider, small and precise: Bolton. The second steps were those of a big man, a large man, a heavy man.
“Tom?” cried the old man. He did not open his eyes.
“Yes,” said a voice, at last.
Tom Wolfe burst the seams of Field’s imagination, as a huge child bursts the lining of a too-small coat.
“Tom Wolfe, let me look at you!” If Field said it once he said it a dozen times as he fumbled from bed, shaking violently. “Put up the blinds, for God’s sake, I want to see this! Tom Wolfe, is that you?”
Tom Wolfe looked down from his tall thick body, with big hands out to balance himself in a world that was strange. He looked at the old man and the room and his mouth was trembling.
“You’re just as they said you were, Tom!”
Thomas Wolfe began to laugh and the laughing was huge, for he must have thought himself insane or in a nightmare, and he came to the old man and touched him and he looked at Professor Bolton and felt of himself, his arms and legs, he coughed experimentally and touched his own brow. “My fever’s gone,” he said. “I’m not sick anymore.”
“Of course not, Tom.”
“What a night,” said Tom Wolfe. “It hasn’t been easy. I thought I was sicker than any man ever was. I felt myself floating and I thought, This is fever. I felt myself traveling, and thought, I’m dying fast. A man came to me. I thought, This is the Lord’s messenger. He took my hands. I smelled electricity. I flew up and over, and I saw a brass city. I thought, I’ve arrived. This is the city of heaven, there is the Gate! I’m numb from head to toe, like someone left in the snow to freeze. I’ve got to laugh and do things or I might think myself insane. You’re not God, are you? You don’t look like Him.”
The old man laughed. “No, no, Tom, not God, but playing at it. I’m Field.” He laughed again. “Lord, listen to me. I said it as if you should know who Field is. Field, the financier, Tom, bow low, kiss my ring finger. I’m Henry Field. I like your work, I brought you here. Come along.”
The old man drew him to an immense crystal window.
“Do you see those lights in the sky, Tom?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Those fireworks?”
“Yes.”
“They’re not what you think, son. It’s not July Fourth, Tom. Not in the usual way. Every day’s Independence Day now. Man has declared his Freedom from Earth. Gravitation without representation has been overthrown. The Revolt has long since been successful. That green Roman Candle’s going to Mars. That red fire, that’s the Venus rocket. And the others, you see the yellow and the blue? Rockets, all of them!”
Thomas Wolfe gazed up like an immense child caught amid the colorized glories of a July evening when the set-pieces are awhirl with phosphorous and glitter and barking explosion.
“What year is this?”
“The year of the rocket. Look here.” And the old man touched some flowers that bloomed at his touch. The blossoms were like blue and white fire. They burned and sparkled their cold, long petals. The blooms were two feet wide, and they were the color of an autumn moon. “Moon-flowers,” said the old man. “From the other side of the Moon.” He brushed them and they dripped away into a silver rain, a shower of white sparks on the air. “The year of the rocket. That’s a title for you, Tom. That’s why we brought you here, we’ve need of you. You’re the only man could handle the sun without being burned to a ridiculous cinder. We want you to juggle the sun, Tom, and the stars, and whatever else you see on your trip to Mars.”
“Mars?” Thomas Wolfe turned to seize the old man’s arm, bending down to him, searching his face in unbelief.
“Tonight. You leave at six o’clock.”
The old man held a fluttering pink ticket on the air, waiting for Tom to think to take it.
It was five in the afternoon. “Of course, of course I appreciate what you’ve done,” cried Thomas Wolfe.
“Sit down, Tom. Stop walking around.”
“Let me finish, Mr. Field, let me get through with this, I’ve got to say it.”
“We’ve been arguing for hours,” pleaded Mr. Field, exhaustedly.
They had talked from breakfast until lunch until tea, they had wandered through a dozen rooms and ten dozen arguments, they had perspired and grown cold and perspired again.
“It all comes down to this,” said Thomas Wolfe, at last. “I can’t stay here, Mr. Field. I’ve got to go back. This isn’t my time. You’ve no right to interfere—”
“But, I—”
“I was deep in my work, my best yet to come, and now you run me off three centuries. Mr. Field, I want you to call Mr. Bolton back. I want you to have him put me in his machine, whatever it is, and return me to 1938, my rightful place and year. That’s all I ask of you.”
“But, don’t you want to see Mars?”
“With all my heart. But I know it isn’t for me. It would throw my writing off. I’d have a huge handful of experience that I couldn’t fit into my other writing when I went home.”
“You don’t understand, Tom, you don’t understand at all.”
“I understand that you’re selfish.”
“Selfish? Yes,” said the old man. “For myself, and for others, very selfish.”
“I want to go home.”
“Listen to me, Tom.”
“Call Mr. Bolton.”
“Tom, I don’t want to have to tell you this. I thought I wouldn’t have to, that it wouldn’t be necessary. Now, you leave me only this alternative.” The old man’s right hand fetched hold of a curtained wall, swept back the drapes, revealing a large white screen, and dialed a number, a series of numbers. The screen flickered into vivid color, the lights of the room darkened, darkened, and a graveyard took line before their eyes.
“What are you doing?” demanded Wolfe, striding forward, staring at the screen.
“I don’t like this at all,” said the old man. “Look there.”
The graveyard lay in midafternoon light, the light of summer. From the screen drifted the smell of summer earth, granite, and the odor of a nearby creek. From the trees, a bird called. Red and yellow flowers nodded among the stones, and the screen moved, the sky rotated, the old man twisted a dial for emphasis, and in the center of the screen, growing large, coming closer, yet larger, and now filling their senses, was a dark granite mass; and Thomas Wolfe, looking up in the dim room, ran his eyes over the chiseled words, once, twice, three times, gasped, and read again, for there was his name:
THOMAS WOLFE.
And the date of his birth and the date of his death, and the flowers and green ferns smelling sweetly on the air of the cold room.
“Turn it off,” he said.
“I’m sorry, Tom.”
“Turn it off, turn it off! I don’t believe it.”
“It’s there.”
The screen went black and now the entire room was a midnight vault, a tomb, with the last faint odor of flowers.
“I didn’t wake up again,” said Thomas Wolfe.
“No. You died that September of 1938. So, you see. O God, the ironies, it’s like the title of your book. Tom, you can’t go home again.”
“I never finished my book.”
“It was edited for you, by others who went over it, carefully.”
“I didn’t finish my work, I didn’t finish my work.”
“Don’t take it so badly, Tom.”
“How else can I take it?”
The old man didn’t turn on the lights. He didn’t want to see Tom there. “Sit down, boy.” No reply. “Tom?” No answer. “Sit down, son; will
