was incensed — told me I should have said it was a life and death matter; and he
insisted on my trying Rusty. First, I spoke to Mr. Trawler’s butler — Mr. and Mrs.
Trawler, he announced, were at dinner and might he take a message? Joe Bell
shouted into the receiver: «This is urgent, mister. Life and death.» The outcome was
that I found myself talking — listening, rather — to the former Mag Wildwood: «Are
you starkers?» she demanded. «My husband and I will positively sue anyone who
attempts to connect our names with that ro-ro-rovolting and de-de-degenerate girl. I
always knew she was a hop-hop-head with no more morals than a hound-bitch in
heat. Prison is where she belongs. And my husband agrees one thousand percent.
We will positively sue anyone who — » Hanging up, I remembered old Doc down in
Tulip, Texas; but no, Holly wouldn’t like it if I called him, she’d kill me good.
I rang California again; the circuits were busy, stayed busy, and by the time O.J.
Berman was on the line I’d emptied so many martinis he had to tell me why I was
phoning him: «About the kid, is it? I know already. I spoke already to Iggy Fitelstein.
Iggy’s the best shingle in New York. I said Iggy you take care of it, send me the bill,
only keep my name anonymous, see. Well, I owe the kid something. Not that I owe
her anything, you want to come down to it. She’s crazy. A phony. But a real phony,
you know? Anyway, they only got her in ten thousand bail. Don’t worry, Iggy’ll
spring her tonight — it wouldn’t surprise me she’s home already.»
But she wasn’t; nor had she returned the next morning when I went down to feed
her cat. Having no key to the apartment, I used the fire escape and gained entrance
through a window. The cat was in the bedroom, and he was not alone: a man was
there, crouching over a suitcase. The two of us, each thinking the other a burglar,
exchanged uncomfortable stares as I stepped through the window. He had a pretty
face, lacquered hair, he resembled José; moreover, the suitcase he’d been packing
contained the wardrobe José kept at Holly’s, the shoes and suits she fussed over,
was always carting to menders and cleaners. And I said, certain it was so: «Did Mr.
Ybarra-Jaegar send you?»
«I am the cousin,» he said with a wary grin and just-penetrable accent.
«Where is José?»
He repeated the question, as though translating it into another language. «Ah,
where she is! She is wailing,» he said and, seeming to dismiss me, resumed his valet
activities.
So: the diplomat was planning a powder. Well, I wasn’t amazed; or in the
slightest sorry. Still, what a heartbreaking stunt: «He ought to be horse-whipped.»
The cousin giggled, I’m sure he understood me. He shut the suitcase and
produced a letter. «My cousin, she ask me leave that for his chum. You will oblige?»
On the envelope was scribbled: For Miss H. Golightly — Courtesy Bearer.
I sat down on Holly’s bed, and hugged Holly’s cat to me, and felt as badly for
Holly, every iota, as she could feel for herself.
«Yes, I will oblige.»
And I did: without the least wanting to. But I hadn’t the courage to destroy the
letter; or the will power to keep it in my pocket when Holly very tentatively inquired
if, if by any chance, I’d had news of José. It was two mornings later; I was sitting by
her bedside in a room that reeked of iodine and bedpans, a hospital room. She had
been there since the night of her arrest. «Well, darling,» she’d greeted me, as I
tiptoed toward her carrying a carton of Picayune cigarettes and a wheel of newautumn violets, «I lost the heir.» She looked not quite twelve years: her pale vanilla
hair brushed back, her eyes, for once minus their dark glasses, clear as rain water —
one couldn’t believe how ill she’d been.
Yet it was true: «Christ, I nearly cooled. No fooling, the fat woman almost had me.
She was yakking up a storm. I guess I couldn’t have told you about the fat woman.
Since I didn’t know about her myself until my brother died. Right away I was
wondering where he’d gone, what it meant, Fred’s dying; and then I saw her, she
was there in the room with me, and she had Fred cradled in her arms, a fat mean
red bitch rocking in a rocking chair with Fred on her lap and laughing like a brass
band. The mockery of it! But it’s all that’s ahead for us, my friend: this comedienne
waiting to give you the old razz. Now do you see why I went crazy and broke
everything?»
Except for the lawyer O.J. Berman had hired, I was the only visitor she had been
allowed. Her room was shared by other patients, a trio of triplet-like ladies who,
examining me with an interest not unkind but total, speculated in whispered Italian.
Holly explained that: «They think you’re my downfall, darling. The fellow what done
me wrong»; and, to a suggestion that she set them straight, replied: «I can’t. They
don’t speak English. Anyway, I wouldn’t dream of spoiling their fun.» It was then that
she asked about José.
The instant she saw the letter she squinted her eyes and bent her lips in a tough
tiny smile that advanced her age immeasurably. «Darling,» she instructed me, «would
you reach in the drawer there and give me my purse. A girl doesn’t read this sort of
thing without her lipstick.»
Guided by a compact mirror, she powdered, painted every vestige of twelve-yearold out of her face. She shaped her lips with one tube, colored her cheeks from
another. She penciled the rims of her eyes, blued the lids, sprinkled her neck with
4711; attached pearls to her ears and donned her dark glasses; thus armored, and
after a displeased appraisal of her manicure’s shabby condition, she ripped open the
letter and let her eyes race through it while her stony small smile grew smaller and
harder. Eventually she asked for a Picayune. Took a puff: «Tastes bum. But divine,»
she said and, tossing me the letter: «Maybe this will come in handy — if you ever
write a rat-romance. Don’t be hoggy: read it aloud. I’d like to hear it myself.»
It began: «My dearest little girl — «
Holly at once interrupted. She wanted to know what I thought of the handwriting.
I thought nothing: a tight, highly legible, uneccentric script. «It’s him to a T.
Buttoned up and constipated,» she declared. «Go on.»
«My dearest little girl, I have loved you knowing you were not as others. But
conceive of my despair upon discovering in such a brutal and public style how very
different you are from the manner of woman a man of my faith and career could
hope to make his wife. Verily I grief for the disgrace of your present circumstance,
and do not find it in my heart to add my condemn to the condemn that surrounds
you. So I hope you will find it in your heart not to condemn me. I have my family to
protect, and my name, and I am a coward where those institutions enter. Forget me,
beautiful child. I am no longer here. I am gone home. But may God always be with
you and your child. May God be not the same as — José.»
«Well?»
«In a way it seems quite honest. And even touching.»
«Touching? That square-ball jazz!»
«But after all, he says he’s a coward; and from his point of view, you must see — «
Holly, however, did not want to admit that she saw; yet her face, despite its
cosmetic disguise, confessed it. «All right, he’s not a rat without reason. A supersized, King Kong-type rat like Rusty. Benny Shacklett. But oh gee, golly goddamn,»
she said, jamming a fist into her mouth like a bawling baby, «I did love him. The
rat.»
The Italian trio imagined a lover’s crise and, placing the blame for Holly’s
groanings where they felt it belonged, tut-tutted their tongues at me. I was
flattered: proud that anyone should think Holly cared for me. She quieted when I
offered her another cigarette. She swallowed and said: «Bless you, Buster. And bless
you for being such a bad jockey. If I hadn’t had to play Calamity Jane I’d still be
looking forward to the grub in an unwed mama’s home. Strenuous exercise, that’s
what did the trick. But I’ve scared la merde out of the whole badge-department by
saying it was because Miss Dykeroo slapped me. Yessir, I can sue them on several
counts, including false arrest.»
Until then, we’d skirted mention of her more sinister tribulations, and this jesting
reference to them seemed appalling, pathetic, so definitely did it reveal how
incapable she was of recognizing the bleak realities before her. «Now, Holly,» I said,
thinking: be strong, mature, an uncle. «Now, Holly. We can’t treat it as a joke. We
have to make plans.»
«You’re too young to be stuffy. Too small. By the way, what business is it of
yours?»
«None. Except you’re my friend, and I’m worried. I mean to know what you intend
doing.»
She rubbed her nose, and concentrated on the ceiling. «Today’s Wednesday, isn’t
it? So I suppose I’ll sleep until Saturday, really get a good schluffen. Saturday
morning I’ll skip out to the bank. Then I’ll stop by the apartment and pick up a
nightgown or two and my Mainbocher. Following which, I’ll report to Idlewild. Where,
as you damn well know, I have a perfectly fine reservation on a perfectly fine plane.
And since you’re such a friend I’ll let you wave me off. Please stop shaking your
head.»
«Holly. Holly. You can’t do that.»
«Et pourquoi pas? I’m not hot-footing after José, if that’s what you suppose.
According to my census, he’s strictly a citizen of Limboville. It’s only: why should I
waste a perfectly fine ticket? Already paid for? Besides, I’ve never been to
